Proof of Life:  Clues I Will Leave You

Now in my sixties, I am unable to multi-task. I find myself sitting on my patio for well over an hour each morning or evening watching hummingbirds, butterflies, bees, squirrels and dragonflies enjoy my garden. This feels sacred and deserving of my attention. Smoothing on moisturizer, paying attention to the way the morning light moves across the hardwood floors and the daily brewing of coffee are also sacred. I feel people who are no longer of this world in the breeze, winter snow or harvest moon and there is a sense that maybe, just maybe time is permeable in some way and our lives live on in ways we cannot know. 

“Proof of Life: Clues I Will Leave You” is a photographic series that explores my own mortality and invites viewers to pay attention to all the ways we are leaving behind traces and evidence of who we are. Through use of multiple exposure and self-portrait, I spotlight the sacred and fleeting moments in every life while paying attention to  the beauty we are surrounded by daily.

Exploring the art of being alive while aware of time’s inevitable running out is something I choose to hear as a calling to honor these ordinary moments. The act of holding a partner’s hand, swinging alongside a grandchild, the way water feels running over our fingertips or the pleasure from the steam pouring from the kettle is a sensuous experience that we often do without much thought or attention. 

Getting older in our culture is not celebrated. Decay is something we turn away from. We are terrified when we become aware of our dwindling days. Some waste their final years in a holding pattern, frozen and unable to feel the gift of being alive. I am choosing a different perspective.

“Clues I Will Leave You,” is a visual invitation for viewers to pause, pay attention and think about the many ordinary moments they bear witness to each day as well as the clues they will leave behind. I want them to wish with all their hearts for the gift of growing older.